2 days until he is married. I cannot handle it. I want to puke. I want to cry. I want to hit something.
I want to tell the world.
But if I do he will see me as vindictive. I will be the crazy ex. He will think I’m trying to ruin the wedding.
I kind of do want to ruin it. Why should he get marriage while I get depression and panic attacks? While I get abusive relationships? Why? While I get sexually assaulted he gets happiness and no punishment.
I hate my rapist today.